15.3.03
record breaking man...slept for 4 whole hours in the afternoon...wth...accumulated exhaustion once again....thks to the past few nights of stb project marathon..haha..anyway its completed. yes...finally man....and im so satisfied with it..haha..after all, put in so much time and effort...it'd better be worthwhile. had flag day today...was alright la..just that my feet hurt. stomach growled. almost died. haha..ya..but it was okay...and guess wad..i forgot to tell my father that we had guides flag day and he had to fetch me from bukit batok and not from crescent? ya..haha..so...when i called him he was saying, "im in school already.." then i was like, "SCH?!" oh no lor..haha..so he drove all the way back to bb..wth..our home so near to bb onli then he drive all the way to crescent and back again...hahaha..felt so guilty. hmmz..saw hx at bishan mrt...hurhur..wanted to call out to him but just simply couldnt..the two words were already abt to come out of my mouth but in the end, just stared at him and walked past...bleahz...just felt funny la..haha..and was quite shocked to actually see him there. [doro..im sure u got sth to comment on this..haha] dont intend to start doing hw or study yet...tired....mentally...i need at least one more day of break...tml my sis has piano competition...hehehex...think her tchr's realli realli good...can mould a symphony outta seemingly pathetic piece...wish she were my tchr last time..talking abt piano, hafnt touched the piano for months!! hahaha...gosh..i'd better start playing in the hols before i forget how to...and to, at the same time, cultivate the arts side in me..hahahaha..im losing it slightly...but thks to lit, it's still rather in tact...then again, hafnt got nice songs to play....sobz...and to my dearest child....call me on sunday night to arrange kiez...in case i forget...and i shall, to quote u, "entertain" you on monday...gtg watch tv~ ciao.
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14.3.03
im sooo sleepy now. haix..haf been rushing out the stb proj for the past few nights and everytime i get to go to bed, it seems like just five minutes and its morning already. *sigh* going to sleep earlier tonight...even as i type this my eyelids are threatening to shut. fell asleep on the us and almost couldnt wake up in time. oh well. yash, i miss u already...haix...hope u haf fun in camp. sobz..cant go see u tml also..thks to flag day. argh. aniwae, was in the comp lab doing stb...its so freaking idiotic....the comp hung thrice?!?! and i was so pissed i decided to forget abt it and go home...so after spending one hour plus in the comp lab, nothing came outta it. stoopid...waste my time kiez...we intended to submit it today..and wad..stayed up last night till 12+ doing it..and then today, cannot even submit. urgh~~~ ystday was quite happy la..today's okay..ms chia made fun of me again...wth..nvm...was quite irritated by wad she said actually..but of cos she doesnt have any ill intentions as usual. hmm...its holiday and i dun feel like it. after all we have to go to sch so often...wadz the diff? nvm...going to school is always worth it.
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12.3.03
m online now..oops..shdnt be here cos im suposed to finish my maths hw and eat dinner and everything then can come online..otherwise daph kill me...thks to stb proj...haix. but ..the comp was on..and it was so so so tantalising?? couldnt resist it..and it's such a rare opportune moment that my sis is not occupying the stoopid comp...so...ya, haha. must make use of the chance. oh mannz..stayed back until quite late again...but was not too bad la. didnt mood swing today..yay!! and m happy for my frenz..cos they neednt suffer. haix...ya, in a good mood today. yippeez! okiez, gtg do maths..before it gets late. so sian...dun feel like doing. wth. will prob blog later if i find the time. and to the person who insists that she won't come online...i still bet you will. hahaha.. hmmz.. :)
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11.3.03
had very swiftly changing mood swings today. but...overall..im happy. im letting go. im trying my best at least. im going to do anything for my studies...ya. they are the most impt now. feels like a load off me. much more relaxed. "he that hath the streerage of my course, direct my sail"..haha..forgot the first part of the quote..wadehell..its all mixed up. aniwae, reminded me of the "rock"..crashing into the rock...wth..how coincidental kiez..and whos blardee rock it had to be?! dot dot dot. forgetting..in the process...remarkable progress made today. im surprised by my ability. guess if im willing to and i haf the determination, anything is possible. just came home not long ago..its freaking late. lots of hw undone...dun feel like doing. so sian!! yes, i said that im concentrating on studies..but haix. needs time to adapt to it also la. haha. online for the last time for today now...dont want to start my dad suspecting again. going to get back to my habit of sleeping early. so he wont suspect also. going to watch threshold of an era and not go online. am going back to my old routine - it suits be better. its a healthier lifestyle. i dont feel so much like a freak that way. think dad's back. gtg.
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10.3.03
i forgot to say this...i read the "economist" mag before coming online...imagine that. me reading economist mag..hahha..big joke. think there's realli sth wrong with me. oh well...still gotta live on. mebbe economist will be my fave from now on...[and its not as if i can understand wad i read..haha]. boredom and loneliness drives one crazy....
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damn. started snapping at my maid. wadz my freaking prob...*sigh* think my sis is quite childish - talking to her frenz abt girls in her sch...and giggling and giggling...i mean, how can rgs girls be cool kiez? hahah...im so so mean. and sad to say, i think, ironically, shes a reflection of wad i was when i liked f5...or what i am now. ha...so pathetic. look~ my whole family's weird. and my sis is following in my footsteps. dot dot dot. my fault. i shdnt have started all this and even led her into it. bah. not that i wanted to anyway. sch was okay today. not so exciting. and almost broke down again. thks yash for not allowing me to witness it. or id not onli break down, but totally explode. hm. sounds like a machine...ya, mebbe im going to break down soon. i need maintenance - to my darling repairman, i need you so. can u hear me? im calling for your help. dont u know that onli u can salvage everything? sigh.. wth am i talking abt mann. wth. aniwae, went home with dorothy today...with some "adorable" qtss guys in the bus...oh man..they "rock". freakx me out totally...no wonder guys put me off at times. at times, not completely. i know some realli nice guys out there - "men of wax". ha! was disheartened at everything the qtss guys said. everything they said abt girls. cmon..felt like telling them, "you think u damn shuai is it?! stop oggling at girls lor...and u dont onli oggle, you comment, you insult. get a life!!"..okiez..all that was in my mind...and i was pretty scared also...so i was so glad i reached my stop and i rushed down immediately. *phew* on bus 61...saw some familiar faces...wow...nth much to say...very tired. mentally. not physically. o ya, talking abt physical....played floorball today!! my favourite!!!! :D its been a while..and i realised that i cant hit in the opposite direction and need to swop hands..okiez, its hard to explain. but aniwae, i have a weird habit when i play floorball. nvm. ms chia didnt come today...apparently shes sick. hope she'll get well soon. seems qutie empty without her actually..haha..even though she constantly makes fun of me..oh well, she still matters ultimately. dear ms chia..get well soon!! hope tml will be a better day...
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